My Own Understanding?
I woke up this morning to fresh snow on top of the already 2.5-3 feet we have around the house. It is beautiful and so peaceful. Peace? That’s something I need right now……Peace! After being sick since Wednesday night, not sleeping well, traveling and staying in strange beds, and facing some challenging scenarios, peace seems to be something that I haven’t felt in a few days.
It’s not that I don’t feel that “peace that passeth all understanding” because I do. There is definitely an underlying peace. But, to be honest, I feel a bit restless. I’ve been dealing with a myriad of situations and circumstances that seem to be on my mind almost all of the time! So, when I try to sleep at night, even when I sleep, I’m dreaming about solutions, possibilities and of course challenges.
This morning, when I got up, I actually woke up before everyone else. I went downstairs, made my coffee, got my cup of “adrenaline” and sat down in my chair to watch the snow fall. I wasn’t even thinking about anything in particular when a phrase, a SINGLE phrase, ran through my mind….”Lean NOT on your own understanding”. Obviously, this phrase comes from a familiar set of verses, Proverbs 3:5 and 6. But the fact that it was that one phrase that went through my mind, made me really stop and think and of course, meditate on the entire passage.
Proverbs 3:5-6 seems to be a passage that many people glibly rattle off at various “appropriate” times. Usually the emphasis is on the first phrase. “Trust in the Lord with all your heart”. If you were to ask me right now, if I am trusting in the Lord in these situations and decisions I am facing, I would answer emphatically yes. I am resting constantly in the fact that God is sovereign and in control of all circumstances and outcomes that I’m currently dealing with. HOWEVER, I also realized this morning that it is a HUGE possibility, perhaps PROBABILITY, that I’m also leaning on my own understanding and perhaps looking to the understanding of others as well.
Scripture does say that in the “multitude of counselors there is safety”, and I do always try to seek out godly counsel. Perhaps though, I’ve been putting too much emphasis and/or pressure on ” figuring things our from a purely logical standpoint, from a human understanding viewpoint, instead of waiting on God to direct my path and the paths of all of those around me.
There is a balance between our responsibility, the “working it out” portion of our walk, and the other side of things, which is trusting and knowing that God knows the beginning from the end and is always working together to bring about our good and His glory. So, since I have really done all that I can do to find solutions for various situations and challenges that I’m currently facing, perhaps now is the time, to focus more on the fact that I can’t LEAN on my own understanding, but instead should focus on God directing the paths and making the crooked ways straight.
At this point, God is the only one who really has the “end in mind” and I’m going to rest in that fact!
Faith and Courage,